"When did Love become unmoving? When did Love become unconsuming?"
I've been here off and on for about 3 years now, and this is about my 7th account because they always get deleted for some reason. But anyway, I'm back again.
In my time here, I've gone through so many different phases, I've gone through the teenage angst stage, I've gone through the lovey dovey phase, I've gone through the loner phase, I've gone through the bully phase. Now, I'm beginning to come out of my depression, I've still got a long road ahead but I'm on my way out. I've been so low in my life that I've literally held a sword to my neck ready to slice open my neck, I've put too many pills too count in the palm of my hand ready to swallow them all, I have even stood at the edge of a cliff in Alaska ready to fall all the way down. I've have purposefully isolated socially and physically for months at a time, I have been to the gates of Hell and back. I've been broken, beaten, torn, ripped apart, and left to die. But I'm still here, alive and well. But I'm not here for myself, not even the slightest. I'm here for everyone else, I'm here for the kid in the back of crowd slowly slipping away, and I'm here to love that kid. Everyone has this amazing gift of life that we don't even deserve. We al have this infinite worth that can't even be imagined, our worth isn't defined by the things we do or the words we say, but our worth is determined by God alone. And yeah, I'm a Christian, who cares? I'm not here to pound the bible in your face, I'm here to show you the love and kindness of Jesus, I'm here to show everyone that they are loved unconditionally and that they will always someone to talk to, someone to listen to them, someone to lean on.
"Keep your head up, and your heart open. Hold onto your hope. When you lose hope, you lose motivation. When you lose motivation, you lose energy. And without energy, there is no life"
"If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind" - James 1:5-6