"We must accept infinite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope" ~ Martin Luther King Jr.
We never know what days that inspire sadness can come knocking at our doorstep. Yet we never know when justice is served and we get our reward for getting through such hardships (whatever they may be). They are hard to get through, especially with that want of love standing in between both the bad and good days. I'm in the same scenario that you're going through rn, not knowing where it is, when it will happen, who it would be, why it would happen, and how it will play, it's scary. That's why the commonly known phrase everyone likes to beat a dead horse on exists, "You'll find that special someone someday". I first think about this knowing all my problems are still unsolved, still unanswered, the solution just ended up making me think of more issues. One day, I worked around those problems to give into a new light of thinking, "What if I start to think about the needs for my want instead of thinking the wants for my want". That's what hit me, like an old kung fu movie where it was in you all along lol. Phrases like that exist to make you apply yourself better. What I did as soon as I knew this was get new bomb ass clothes, get a new haircut, and work on all the flaws I have with my personality. I used to be introverted, but now I go everywhere searching for people when I get the chance. What did I gain you ask? People who own businesses start to look at me from Shaggy to someone who looks like he knows what he's doing (trust me they told me this), new friends, higher charisma, personality, and etc. What does all that have to apply for help? It means that if there doesn't seem like there's hope, no matter how hard you try, then you gotta make your own hope. There's a common fight between the term, "Brains vs Brawns (and even beauty in some circumstances)". You may think there is a side that always wins, but there isn't, they all have flaws. It's experience is all that you need to be successful in terms of anything. Jobs, money, and of course love. You may have tried everything, but you have to sort out what worked and what didn't. If you tried out nothing, than that gives you an excuse to go and give it your all. If you tried everything and nothing worked and you can't think of any ideas, then try them again and see if they can work the next time. When there's no hope left, ya gotta pinch at every small angle to make some more, and experience would surely help make hope for anyone suffering from any of those "days that inspire sadness". Besides, evil only exists in mere concept, there's only a lack of good things, and what do innovators do when there's no good left? They make it, whatever they can do to do so. Everyone can be a personal innovator, you just gotta learn how to do it, it's hard but it's well worth it in the end for a better you. Take it from me, someone who was (and still is) in your footsteps. You got this, I know you do, I got as much hope in you as I do me, because I know what it's like to try everything and nothing works out in the long run. Only this time, I see hope no matter the cause, because I did what I had to do to make myself keep going to find that special someone. Cuz I know, like I said, that it would be well worth it in the long run, and judging from my situation and yours, you'd be very happy too.